todays heros . . . -PRIVATE, GRIM ONLY-

[umm.jade york parker ?!]

to days heros are tomorrows garbage.
.................................. dont let me be your trash.

Nothing ever goes the way people hope. nothing ever ends the way you want it to. and everything has a way of turning out differantly. I wish i could say Im happy i wish i could say my life is complete. but i cant. there are too many holes too many un answered questions i find my self staring into the unknown on so many things.

I have these memories. memories i know that aren't mine. they couldn't be. deep down i know i never had a father, i never went to high school and i never lived happily with my brother.

so many unanswered questions. so many things that don't add up. What happen to me? what was so bad that someone felt they could just take it away?

UJ closed the small book and let out a sigh. she had to admit two thousand years had past and she was happy she was a vampire but she just didn't know why. her eyes stared at the ocean line as she waves crept up to her feet and then ran away, as if it was playing some sick game with her. she let out another small sigh and stood up. the water was now too close as she stepped back she glared at the ground.

all the entries were the same they asked the same question as if they were trapped on some twisted repeating record. was that all it was a game for someone. well she wasn't playing. UJ's eyes closed as she fell back into the dry sand. her eyes closed trying once more to think of what was missing. did she even want to know what was missing? what if she did find out? what if it was worse then not knowing? she threw her hand over her eyes and let the small book sit on her stomach. the pen she had ben using was now stuffed into her pockets. lost in the void of the beach she laid.

what was so bad that she couldn't remember? what was so worng that it was taken from her two thousand years ago? and the worst part was, her own brother couldn't even tell her what happen. they hadn't lived to gether for long and she wasn't even sure if her memories of hm were even reliable. hell, he was never reliable. Amare. now she was differant she was like a fire cracker. the type you could hold in you hand if you wanted to get burned. she smelled of the good stuff and just thinking of being hungry was all it took.

UJ opened her eyes. she like Amare, more then she should or at least more then she thought she should. Girls were for guys and guys were for girls, or at least it was when she was younger. but yet she couldn't help but feel something for her. her blood just called. UJ closed her eyes and took a deep breath sniffing the air. no mater where Amare was she could still smell her. she opened her eyes feeling every part of her calling out for the young shapeshifter. but she held back. UJ pushed her self farther into the sand and sighed deeply.

"Who am I really?" was the only question that needed focus now.

[Grim Ai Albacore]

I can be more for you if you only let me.

He took a deep breath feeling was the worst thing that anyone could ever have punished a vampire with. Feeling the pain. For years the pain was there and then for years it wasn't as if by some miracle the pain had just vanished. But pain doesn't vanish nor does it go away. He sat in his room staring at what seemed to be an old picture of a young Japanese girl. But she wasn't Japanese, she wasn't anything. She wasn't even human any more.

His eyes drifted away from the picture to the window. She would be on the beach now. Walking till she couldn't and then there she would fall. this was his normal routine, watching her. Following her every move like a blind puppy. He was weak. Two thousand years had done him in and she was the last of his pain. Yet he could just end her like he did the rest. Something about her just turned him on inside. She was his life, his reason. his weakness. The only weakness the immortal vampire had acquired.

It had been centuries since he had last stood face to face with her. And even now he still wished he could do it all over differently. He wanted her, bad. HE stood from his chair unable to hold back any longer. Alcide walked in and bowed.

"Sir?"

"I'm going out." was all was said and he was gone. Alcide was a trusted friend one who would look after Grim if anything were to happen. He smiled as he neared the beach walking slow, human pace slow. The streets were empty and it wasn't long till he found him self at vampire speed, then back to human speed. It was only fair. Or so it seemed.

"Who am I, really?"

"Umm Jade York Parker. Two thousand year old vampire with no control like her creator." Grim smiled as he approached the girl slowly decreasing the space between them. Eventually he stood be for her staring down at her in his wicked evil manner. "Should I continue? After all it is you who asked who you were, really." he looked away knowing fully his affect on her, he got kicks that way.

[umm.jade york parker ?!]

UJ's body tensed as she heared some one answer her own question. a question that should of been left unanswered. she looked up seeing another vampire standing befor her. her eyes stared as if unable to just pull away. who was he? how did he know her name? and her whole name at that. UJ's eyes continued to stare at the man as she finaly spoke.

"How do you know who i am much less know anything about me? i've never seen you before in my life." she looked at him and then sighed throwing her head back down into the sand. there was something about him that she could just let go of. she could feel a pull, and a strong one at that. her eyes drifted back to him as she laid there she pulled the book off her stomach and sat up.

"Who are you?" and what is your conection to me? she looked at him and then looked at the book befor pushing it behind her back as if hiding it for him. not that it was of any importance. it just stated half of her life.

[[ihave no brian right now so its really short. my bad. i may add more later. MAYBE.]]

[Grim Ai Albacore]

the moon was high and all he could think to do was embrace the vampiric beauty before him. she was no longer human and far from ever being his. he knew that. He knew it more then anything and yet he didn't want to admit it. His dark exterior was in her hands. Her fragile hands that could destroy his whole life's work to show people how cruel he was. A true vampire. A true demon.

His eyes narrowed as his body slowly fell to mimic hers, in a way. He stared into her eyes taking in her sent. she still smelt like his brand. His blood. He smiled and took a deep breath in. "I know more about you then anyone could ever know." He smiled wickedly and then looked down to her chest. "You were always the childish type, UJ. In fact I never thought you would desperately hang on to your humanity all these years." he paused lifting his right hand and cupping her shoulder. "After all I am your maker."

He smiled a little more letting his hand fall to her mid arm and slink past her back. His hand stumbled on to the black book and slowly pulled it out. "I'm sure you have many question that I truly don't wish to answer but knowing what I know. Your better off with out knowing." He smiled another wicked smile and tossed the book aside. "As for this Amare, What do you know of brands. I've seen her around town shes a shifter and well you know fully that we vampires don't approve of them."

Grim placed his hand on her shoulder once more and sighed. "But I tell you this for your own good... She's no good. And if you see her anymore life wont be so easy for her."